It is what it is.

Sleep

Do you love to sleep? Because I sure do. I mean, who doesn't? I'm so good in bed, I can sleep for hours without having the need to eat. I used to envy those people who can sleep in late when I have to wake up at unholy hours just to go to work. But recently, things has changed. I'm envy of those people who can get a minimum rest say 7-8 hours sleep. Or even 6 hours.

These days, I can barely get a 5 hours sleep. Usually would be an hour n I'll be jerking myself awake. Worst still, I'm scared. I didn't realize it because I thought I woke naturally until I start to jerk and twitching myself awake. I start getting dreams that don't make sense. I'm afraid of the dark, I'm afraid when it comes nightfall. I'm afraid when it comes bed time cz it would mean another long n sleepless night. When the sun slowly rises and the sky slowly brightens up, is when I fall asleep. It is going to be 3 weeks since all this started.

I don't know how long this is gonna last. I don't know when I'll feel better but I just want to be able to sleep again. Like how I used to be. People tell me to be strong, have faith, but I need something easier. Like giving up.

We've been friends for 7 years. His best friend dated my then best friend. Partied, dinner and etc non productive activities. Probably have some photos but too damn lazy to go through the files. :P

We never exactly saw each other the way we would. Until a couple of months ago, fate *ahem* brought us along. We ate, we drank and most importantly, we talked. The way we never did before. We got to know each other, better. Ever since, we are inseparable. Not literally of course. We try to hang out as much as we could when I'm back and we whatsapp every single day and video chat almost every other night.



Today I woke up, feeling extremely weird. Cz I'd be whatsapping him with no replies. A one sided conversation cz he's out at the sea. No he's not a fisherman. Haha. He's out diving. And yes, there's no signal out there. :(

I realize this is the first time we did not chat since we got this close and yeah, I kinda missed him. Badly.

I never believed in long distances relationship and I think it's bullshit. But suddenly LDR doesn't sound so bad. Come back to civilization quick my dear, otherwise your whatsapp and Facebook messages is gonna explode.

Okay okay.. I sound so dramatic. He'll be back by Sunday. So hopefully all would be good by then.

*dear clock, tick faster please?*