Wednesday, March 6, 2013


Do you love to sleep? Because I sure do. I mean, who doesn't? I'm so good in bed, I can sleep for hours without having the need to eat. I used to envy those people who can sleep in late when I have to wake up at unholy hours just to go to work. But recently, things has changed. I'm envy of those people who can get a minimum rest say 7-8 hours sleep. Or even 6 hours.

These days, I can barely get a 5 hours sleep. Usually would be an hour n I'll be jerking myself awake. Worst still, I'm scared. I didn't realize it because I thought I woke naturally until I start to jerk and twitching myself awake. I start getting dreams that don't make sense. I'm afraid of the dark, I'm afraid when it comes nightfall. I'm afraid when it comes bed time cz it would mean another long n sleepless night. When the sun slowly rises and the sky slowly brightens up, is when I fall asleep. It is going to be 3 weeks since all this started.

I don't know how long this is gonna last. I don't know when I'll feel better but I just want to be able to sleep again. Like how I used to be. People tell me to be strong, have faith, but I need something easier. Like giving up.